I was thinking of what to write in my blog. I closed my eyes for a while and many thoughts came in, many words came in….
Well at this phase of my life I can’t think anything else other than my GOD and spiritual life. I don’t have anything to write other than ma heavenly DAD. I know this sounds so much boring but I just want to be like this. This is the way I choose to be. This is the only aim I see in my life now. I can't see anything else other than him I prefer not to see anything else or this world. I wanna only see the one who created this world and who was at the very beginning of this world. I wanna frame it in my heart. I wanna cherish in you my DAD Jesus. I wanna rejoice in you ma DAD. What more I want the joy you have filled in my heart. I wanna celebrate being with you. Because the day when I turned my face off and said to you that Lord I don’t need you because now I can handle things, now I can manage things, now I can lead my life myself, now I can do things myself. I was a total fool who thought that it's me and only me. I kept faith in this world and in myself. But soon I started to feel the anguish for turning away from you, I started feeling the torment and agony for turning off my face from you. I am like that son who took the share of his father and went away and spent everything I had. But when I was in that pig’s field by feeding those pigs and had nothing to eat. I filled my stomach with feeds or pods that the pigs were eating. When I starved to death I came to my senses I remembered ohhh I had a wonderful DAD whose barrel is filled and will never get empty and who poured his unconditional love towards me. I cried and came back to my DAD’s house and said DADA I sinned against you and heaven. I got so deceived in this world that I even forgot that I have a wonderful DAD who ran and came to me, threw his hands around me and kissed me. I said I am not worthy to be called your child. But my father said let’s have a feast and celebrate for my child was dead and now born again and further said she was lost and is found. This is the love of my heavenly father.
My only goal in my life is to climb those steps of spirituality in my life, to wear my DAD lord’s qualities, to give up myself. Giving up myself in the sense leaving my bodily behaviours, attitudes, ego, anger, selfish, rude, arrogance, stubborn. I don't wish to take all these along with me in the rest of my life. I wanna stay peace…. And I wanna be patient, I wanna be kind, I wanna love unconditionally, I wanna serve, I wanna be compassionate, I wanna pray for my enemy, I wanna feed and give party to those people who cant throw me back a party, I wanna give money to those who can’t pay me back, I wanna weep along with their sorrows and dance in their happiness… This is what ma DAD Jesus did and showed me this path to follow. I don’t have any other wish or in other words, I have my wishlist but nothing is greater than all this. Priority is my GOD and I wanna set him at first. Nothing is greater than ma heavenly DAD.
The day when I accepted Jesus as my personal Savior believe me I never had a chance to look back. He said to me first search his will and rest everything will be given to you. When I obeyed this GOD fulfilled his promise by giving rest of everything.
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